Happily taken and very much in love…
I choose to be unstoppable and bigger than my concern and worries, the strength of you inspire me daily which makes me trust my intuition and live a courages life with you. The best feeling in the world is realizing that I am perfectly happy without the thing I thought I need.
It was a late Friday night when I arrived home being exhausted from the terrible traffic caused by undisciplined drivers in the metro highway. I was excited to meet my fiancé along with my surprise weekend getaway planned, however without my knowledge there was most disturbing news that I should know about him regarding on the status of his health.
He is working in a famous and reputable Bank; it is a practice and guidelines of the company to conduct annual physical examination to determine if the employees are still fit to work. By him undergoing this physical examination, X-Ray was not good and their Doctor advised him to see Radiologist to seek for a second opinion about the result. He did all of the things and according to the Radiologist based on the X-Ray result from the Company he might have Pulmonary Tuberculosis (can be treated within 6 months of taking medicine) but to be sure, they will perform and test again for diagnosis.
So basically, sadness outpouring all over his veins to the unofficial result instead of waiting the official one, he presumed that it is positive already.
When he told me about the matter, I got paranoid. I was not able to hug him or comfort him but instead act like very mad and asking why it happens. He don’t smoke, no vice – perfect, where this coming from? After all; I ask myself, where is my support? I actually should be the root of his inspiration, but on that time, I never was.
Imagine, immediately he separate all his things because it was advised by the Doctor it is very contagious, and since I was his partner, I should be check as well but I don’t submit myself for checking. I’m still in the process of accepting the fact but I shall allow my intuition to guide me along. I decline to inform him with my surprise weekend getaway due to the news; there is no spirit at all. It was just all of the sudden, we are not talking and doing things separately – it seems were doomed.
It was twelve hours – no sleep, no plan, no talking, and no questions – silence. I was thinking, when the result is positive (let us say), he is the breadwinner and supporting his family always, how could he continue doing that when is on leave? All it matters – no answers.
Early Sunday on our breakfast, we talked about the situation, planning and how we going life forward with this problem and also agreed to move our wedding date. So we get going, iron out differences and apologizing for our reactions. It’s kind of we accept the situation. This was also the day that he will get the final result from the Radiologist technician and start his medication.
I was surprised that he didn’t call me and speak about the result but due to many things happen in between I almost forgot the pressure we are dealing. I always inculcate in my mind that life must goes on – move on forward. When he arrived, one thing I asked was how much is the medicine, he replied there is no medicine for this, so I asked, why, then replied with a smile because I don’t hat Pulmonary Tuberculosis, it was a mistake diagnosis. The X-Ray was clear and it was different compared to the first one.
The tension subsides when I heard the good news it’s kind of “let’s call for a celebration”, we have been doomed for many hours but in the end there is no truth about it. We are so happy…smile…smile and laughter. Now, everything is well according to plan and I can’t wait to share my story here because this is how I express my feelings as well.
Conclusions are not always pleasant. If you follow reason far enough it always leads to conclusions that are contrary to reason. I don’t deny we sometimes draw the right conclusions, but don’t we just as often draw the wrong ones?
After all, Life is the art of drawing sufficient conclusions from insufficient premises.
“Don’t judge a book by its cover” is a metaphorical phrase that has learned since from grade school. You shouldn’t prejudge the worth or value of something, by its outward appearance alone. However, why there are people speak their mind and don’t care no matter what if it’ll rip-out the heart of others?
Shallow understanding from people of good will is more frustrating than absolute misunderstanding from people of ill will. There’s nothing wrong with being shallow as long as you’re insightful about it. It’s a shallow life that doesn’t give a person a few scars.
Only shallow person know themselves but mostly shallow people end-up nothing. But think about it; shallow people have it so much better because they don’t understand the same things we feel so it doesn’t affect them even how awful feeling it is.
During my teenage years; I was tired of pretending that I was someone else just to get along with my classmates, just for the sake of having friendships, not to be bullied but to bully.
When learning the rope of being with them, I thought I was trapped in a cage and I can’t handle it in their way. I was lying to myself but still I know I would always learn from my mistakes. I learned that when am surrounded with them I find myself judging others – I didn’t consider that the inside is what counts!
But after all I did, I reap confidence away from it which I used it to fight them back whenever we’ve faced into trouble. Being brave is not enough not to be bullied but being confident to pretend being brave is great ammo to defeat the enemy and win the war.
If a person cannot understand the beauty of life, it is probably because life never understood the beauty in them and don’t judge the past by the standards of today because it won’t work – they’re incompatible.
The world only goes around by misunderstanding. Where misunderstanding serves others as an advantage, one is helpless to make oneself understood.
Think twice before you speak!
Shied Camouflage 